My Last Wish !!!

for a few moments ....
the sun hides..behind the clouds, and the light grows hazy
my heart sinks
i ask myself , is this the end????...
i have had my fill
of many pleasures, this world has to offer
i have suffered pain ,shed tears
been betrayed by friends and befriended betrayers
as the inevitable climax draws near
one last thought
on the few unwritten pages left still in my diary
let me not dwindle inch by inch
like the tapering candle
ending without a flicker.
let mine be the exit of a meteor
swift , abrupt
one last burst of fire 
into the releams of the unknown
would it please thee, to grant this ultimate wish........

Internet and me!!

My big brown eyes looked bigger than ever , I felt goosebumbs all over my body.i looked around only to see everyone as normal as a swine in the mud pool. Even beathing human found there were busy arranging themselves and looking for a place to rest there B***S. blabbering something still appreciating my masi;s sari and cursing the mosquitoes who were really excited to find a well fed sweet bloated bengoli family in the god forsaken suderban villa after ages.

The maali came inside with a broad smile in his face ( after all he was confronting human race after decades) , welcomed us and said “ saabji , this is natures lap , you have everything here , water , air , sunlight and momentary view of lovely animals. Wow!! Such an amazing thing , no I am not sarcastic , look at the pleasure in the eyes of my mother who was constanly vomiting on her way to this place , it seemd like she had attained salvation. My dad had a proud “itz my choice “wala look in his face, but !! but please someone for a change ask  me if I am happy, wether I really wanna stay in this place without INTERNET.

Yes!! This is a totally undeniable fact that life with internet , is like living in the stone age, ok not let me show a bit of empathy, it like being in the Mesopattamian civilization. Where u have a properly clad family , u behave like human ( have cooked food, and not have sex in public) but u r so damm CUT OFF from everything .

Honestly for me , when I am on a vaction rather being more precise when I am not at work all I need is a electricity ,decent food , and yeah!! A very decent Internet connection. I mean imagine a day when u don’t get to check your mail. The Igoogle layout entices you but u have no way to see what is new in your google reader . which new product Jobs (Apple guy) is planning to lauch and what is the market status of Iboy (latest apple product)

Imagine u do not get to login your FACEBOOK homepage after evry 3 to 4 hrs, cut of from who updated what. Who is RVSPing to which recent happening. The latest breakup your neighbour had, and the new guy in the adject duplex is in a relationship or not. Who tagged your most ugly pic n who switched job from IBM to OMG!! Chevron. Imagine not twitting in 2 hours , even more pathetic not getting tweets from those crazy crazy people you follow. U don’t know what TOI has to say nor what TELEGRAPH is publishing ( and if u a freelance u will understand my curiousity to find out which new guy is writing what) .

I sighed!! Looked at my mom with eyes asking “can you please tell me (tentatively) when r we supposed to leave?” she was too over enthusiactic to understand what I was literally speaking what will she understand the statement of my eyes .( too dramatic…whatsoever ). I packed in myself and went upstair to yeah enjoy the starlit sky. (ok one confession this one beauty of nature does overpowers me). Up there i realized how things have changed and these quantum of data has precisely became our lives. Today even when I am with my family , friends and direct in the lap of nature this internet is making me feel pathetic and incomplete. I guess the feeling is worse that missing your love ( ok I don’t believe in love anymore , but as stated by society ). But then all of a sudden,I saw something miraculous, something that brought a grin in my face , yeah I noticed by brothers blackberry ..Lo n behold” I have a connectivity. in a giffy my mood brighten , half an hour I was done with the net basics and there I was down in the master room , laughing and chatting like never before with everyone with a feeling of complete satisfaction as I was n truly m updated ,and is in touch with everything in this planet like ever before.

“ all credit goes to third generation technology”

-Amrita Sarkar

Being normal...

A very major question that haunts the human mind a lot of time. it ruthlessly attacks them in the shower , while shopping , while watching a boring daily soap, while combing the hairs, even sometimes while making out.... yeah the question is M I NORMAL?????

last night when i put of the lights of my small dingy room , closed my eyes to sleep .BAMM sleep said a "no..." AGrrr... whats next , so i sat up , put on my thinking caps n yeah tried to analysize and joth down some points which might be called as the definition of being normal !!! it was at that time that bright red book allured me with itz real stricking (dazzling infact) cover . and see what i found ............... i found the definition of being normal right there...

"So here goes some deep thought points or rather instances when on i said to be normal"

1) Normal is anything that makes us forget who we r or what we want, it motivates us to produce and reproduces and simply earn money

2)Setting up real set of rules and regulation  for wagging wars

3)Studying years @ the university , struggling hard only to find out at the end that you r unemployable

4)Working form 9 to 5 in a day that gives you no pleasure at all so that just after 30 yrs you can retire and sit back @home

5)Retiring and discovering that you have no more energy left in you to enjoy life and u r dying in few yr out of sheer boredom

6)using botox

7)beliveving that power is much more important that money and money is much more important that happiness

8)Making fun of anyone who is seeking happiness instead of money , and accusing them of not being ambitious.

9)Never talking to stangers

10)believeing that your parents r always right

11)Getting married, having  childern and staying together long after LOVE has all died.

12)Waking up every moring to a hysterical alarm clock by ur bed side.

13)believeing absolutely anything that appears in print

14)Wearing that scrap of coloured cloth around your neck which has no apparent meaning except an answer to "tie"

15)Never asking a direct question even when the other person know what is it that u want to know

16)Keeping that fake smile on ur lips even when ur on the verge of tear (very applicable to females i guess)

17)Believing that Art is either worth a fortune or worth nothing at all

18)Despising anything that is easy to achieve

19)Following fashion trends blindly no matter how ridiculous it may be

20)Believeing that all famous ppl have tons of saved money

21) investing a fortune on extenal beaty while not caring at all about the internal one

(who long will ur external beauty last.. Oley says " ageing starts as early as 25 .. n i believe we all r 21 by nw... 4 mores yrs..!!!!* scared*)

22)Using all means to show that although u r just another ordinary person but u r far above the other mortals

23)Nevrer looking at anyone in the eyes while travelling in public transport, scared of the fact that it may be asumed that u may be paasing out signs *fishy*

24)Standing facing the door in the lift , pretending that u r the only person standing ,regardless the crowd

25)never laughing too loudly in the resturant , no mater how good the joke was

26)always dress accoring to the season bare arms in spring (no matter hw cold) and woolen jackets in autum ( no matter how worm)

27)Going to a charity tea party , assuming u have done to bit in abolishing inequality

28)Eating 3 times a day even if u r not hungry .

29)believeing that other ppl r better than u , so be confined in ur own conjested domain

30)using ur car as a weapon ( hope i need not explain)

31)swearing when in heavy traffic

32)believeing whatever ur spoucse does is only and souly because of his company. (* sponce includes ur boyfirnd and girlfnds)

33)Marying the person who gives u a decent position in the society ( love can wait )

34)Posponding doing the real intersting things in life for the later phrase , when you really dont have tym.

35)avoidind depresssion with daily dose of television , movie, drink and yeah "weed*

36)Assuming women dont lyk football and men hate cooking and home decoration

37)blaming the government for all the bad things that has happend

38)thinking that a decent sober ,and respected person means u r weak , vulnarable and easy to manipulate

39)being convined that aggreesion and rudeness are synomys of a "powerful personality"

40)Being afraid of endoscopy( if a man) and giving birth (if a woman)

Now, done ..yeah the list is over for now..coz if i write more u will starts cursing for wasting ur precious tym whic u would have otherwise spend sleeping , watching some same old feakd out movie or even better talking nonsense to some random girl or guy over the phone:P:)

so , u see .. 9 out of every 10 person we meet r actually normal... so next tym anyone calls u abnormal..FORWARD THIS LINK TO THEM)  

*CHEERS TO LIFE*

- AMRITA SARKAR...

When East Meets West:

“ The dazzling thunder, pricking rains used to drive him crazy , late night parties , getting high , speeding up on the beach were the definition of his life ..while an interesting article in the front page of p3, a weird social venture and  hard earned success brought that wide smile in her face .

He said “ ..its  the finals today….get some pop corn na” she said “ wait a minute !! let me get done with this Email”.

He loved laughing,while she preserved her smiles for god know what , for him every moment was life ..for her moments made life.

 Poles apart emotionally.., psychologically with not a single point to bind them together,

They decided to fall in love with each other.

NO!!! Never ..this wasn’t any experiment for any one of them, they genuinely felt love and desire to be together . Stand by each other and love  like any other couple you come across when you sit in the corner chair of the Café or the cinema theater.

They decided to love each other and understand each others need just like they  saw George Clooney doing in his movies.

But  this was real life!!!!!!!!!

“why not??? Don’t you love me??? U remember how much you used to prioritize me in my hour of need … ” ,” yes!! This is love !! we both know this so there wont be any trouble in future” He said

“ yeah!!! You r right … I can handle this , so what we cannot agree on a single point , so what out taste differs like tsunami and sandstorm. So what you cannot understand my worries ..i can make up for that. After all life is never meant to be perfect” she thought , smiled and hugged him saying “ I don’t care !! All I know is I love you”

But the major question put forward by life to them was …was this  beginning of a love story ..or a tale of brutal hate,

once in a while..

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there,to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson,or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be,
life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count...

Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make of your life anything you wish.

Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.
Most importantly, if you love someone tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

the last call..

Today, I have set my soul free.
My soul has awaken me,
from a long journey of emotions that
i can't bear anymore.
Today, I found myself looking into
that crystal ball of dreams and hopes
that have been shattered so long ago.
I asked myself why have
i allowed you to hurt me for so long,
in so many ways that you could never see or
feel the suffering that my soul has felt.
I thought I was strong enough to change you but
the only person I was changing was myself
I thank you for this long journey
because you made me stronger
to accept that is time
to let you go and to accept that
things will never changes
I finally see that after this long journey

ThaT luSh gREEn nITe

young lovemaking ..that gossamer web
even that point it clings to--- the thing whence
itzz subtle interlacing are swing are scarcely perceptible

momentary touches of fingertips
meeting of rays from the blue and dark forbs

unfinished phrases
lightest changes of cheeks and lips
faintest tremous

the web itself is made of spontaneous belief and indefinable joys

yearning of one life towards another
vision of completeness and indefinable trust...........